December 2009
1 post
Recycling tears.
Same song, same thoughts, I can’t do it. Can’t force myself to stop caring, like how you can’t force yourself to care. Lame, yes I know. Tired of all of this, but can’t get myself to stop. Seven Thousand Four Hundred Sixty Seven Miles away and yet the distance means nothing to me. It doesn’t matter where I am I’ll still feel the same. Even if i couldn’t...
November 2009
11 posts
“Can’t sleep until you’re next to me”
12397.) At one point in my six month relationship...
(via blogsecret)
It hurts being that girl….because I knew he always had feelings for her, but tried to convince myself that it was a lie.
http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_3Cq89gbL9SE/SHOs72ulFQI/A... →
Just a Dream
“Baby, why’d you leave me, why’d you have to go I was counting on forever, now I’ll never know I can’t even breathe It’s like I’m, looking from a distance, standing in the background Everybody’s saying, he’s not coming home now, This can’t be happening to me” -Just a Dream Carrie Underwood
Wake me up! I’m tired of the same...
“It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
all dressed in white, going to the...”
– Carrie Underwood. This is Just a Dream
I’m not going to learn my lesson. Face it, i’m in too deep. I know what I should do and I know when to do it, but I just don’t want to.
6 steps back to square one. i miss you.
Being without you is like learning how to walk again. 6 more days. I wish it didn’t happen, i wish i could take it all back. Close my door, turn off the phone,and go to bed alone.
September 2009
18 posts
090909
Going out to the dock….Maybe i’ll get things straightened out being somewhere calming. I still think of you all the time, more than a friend, but just maybe things will change from now on.
10081.) You were so amazing to me at first, even...
(via blogsecret)
11:15 PM
Can’t sleep, eat or breathe until you’re next to me. Always sleeping next to the phone so I can pick up your calls faster, if there are any. So pathetic people might think, but it’s what I am use to and will be hard to let go of this habit. Sometimes I wonder if you ever look at this by chance. I know you have one, but you don’t know that I have one too. It this the only...
Tuesday Morning
Not a pleasant Tuesday morning. You were right, I should have not stayed at your place. So when I woke up this morning I thought everything up until then was a nightmare. Because I turned over and you were still next to me. It felt like nothing has changed. But then my alarm rang to remind me that I have school and that you were no longer going to come back with me. This nightmare was worse than...
10042.) I wish you knew how much I love you, ever...
(via blogsecret)
I gave you the same look yesterday, but this time with utter disgust. UTTER DISGUST might I add. How could you even lie about HER? “Talking” to her like that when I’m still around waiting for you to come to bed. Don’t you have any self-respect? apparently not. Don’t tell me you only said those things to her, just to annoy me because you knew I was...
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We will have a scratch and sniff futon by the end of the year. For now English Muffins (burnt). Soo much to do sigh by no, they can wait. Hopefully…..
09/09/09 →
I know you feel it too, but why are you pushing me away. It felt so good sleeping with you that night, how wrapped your arms around me and made me fall alseep and how you held on when I had to leave in the morning. If only things were always like that then I wouldn’t be doing all of this to myself. I miss you and I wish you wouldn’t hide any of your feelings and just tell me that...
Next to You
If I’m always moving backwards and you forwards then wouldn’t thinks remain the same or constant? No. I wish we could go back to the way things were, but we keep on moving forward and further apart. I’m always behind you and you’re always in front. Maybe one day I’ll be next to you.
I figured....
After reading “Sum” by David Eagleman, I came to a realization. If the afterlife was like was like one of the forty that he described then I should start working on my afterlife now. If the after life was nothing more than the life today then what should I worry about right? but there’s a lot. I mean waking up to the same people, the same setting might be nice for those who...
“Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.”
– James Dean
In the afterlife of “Quantum,” “everything exists in all possible states at once, even states that are mutually exclusive.” When simultaneously “bowling and not bowling” becomes too much for “you,” an angel helps you out by letting you spend some time “in a closed room, one-on-one with your lover.” You find yourself “simultaneously engaged in her conversation and thinking about something else; she...
P.S.
P.S. I’m Still Not Over You, P.S. I kinda hate you, P.S. I still Love You, ?
P.S. I Miss You and I Love You Still.
10010.) im starting to think i only like you now...
(via blogsecret)
July 2009
9 posts
"R" Is For Regrets →
Because of You...
I find myself sitting here crying. A nightly routine before I can fall asleep. It’s my birthday today, but it feels like the worst day of my life. I wish I could smile, even pretend to, but what’s the point when I’m the only one here. I guess seeing you tomorrow is enough, even if it is just for awhile. Just the thought of seeing you for the last time kills me, but it’s...
Lover minus the "L" = it's ....
You tried so hard to make me fall in love with you, but I see now that you’ve never intended on catching me when I fall.
Typical Morning
Woke up, stretched my arms, and yawned for the last time. I turned over to tell you good morning and I love you. Laying in bed waiting for a kiss and for you to say the same, I woke up.
“What Hurts the Most” -Monica
What...
“A heart breaking isn’t always as loud as a bomb exploding…....”
– unknown