I know you feel it too, but why are you pushing me away. It felt so good sleeping with you that night, how wrapped your arms around me and made me fall alseep and how you held on when I had to leave in the morning. If only things were always like that then I wouldn’t be doing all of this to myself. I miss you and I wish you wouldn’t hide any of your feelings and just tell me that you feel it too. I only live for moments with you now, I hold my breath hoping for the next time I get to see you so I can breathe again. But it’s only for a little bit before I have to hold my breath again. Ughhh why is my life so boring and so depressing. I need to get out and do something, but what? what can I do that would not remind me of you?